i'm listening to a hillsongs cd while waiting for my sis to finish bathing so i get myself cleaned up. it was given to me by xueling and shiyan, along with a sermon cd called 'our message'.really thoughtful, i think. met up with them just now, purpose was to help sy with her english but ended up cracking lame jokes with them. oh well. mayb i'll give her a call later to make up for it. jus met up with may, over tcc azuki shake or watever it's called, the one with red beans n soy milk..some shake i guess. we shared a pizza baguette, which was pretty good but pretty hard to slice at the same time. i gave up and used my hands. it was nice talking to her, i know i can jus spill my guts while she spills hers, knowing that the other wont judge us by what we say. we give each other our worries, our questions about things, and it's heartening to know that someone listens.it was nice.
had an s12 gathering last night, where i was terribly late, but so was youyi, so. it was fun, i think. but i had to leave early, a great bummer. i really need to get used to this. i thought i have. nevermind. the day before that i met up with steph, whom i havent met in like, a million years. ok mayb 3? since the last time we watched the piano comp tgt. twas great, since she's chatty and all, and time just FLEW like nobody's business. i blinked and 2 hrs were gone. made me wish i din make an appt aft tt w jon for photog exhibition. anyways she's another person i enjoy talking to...and we just picked up where we left off so many yrs ago, sharing opinions about ppl or generalisations that we're too polite not to utter in front of others lest they recoil in horror. heh. wish u all the best, girl. i have faith in you. :) ...met up with jon, who walks really fast but im kinda ok w tt cos i feel i need the exercise. n i quite like walking fast...mayb not THAT fast. i was deflated when i got home.
u noe, sometimes u try to describe someone u know to others, how do u know whether to say "he's actually a really quiet guy" or "she's actually very noisy when u know her"? how do u know what's ACTUALLY the case? my own answer is that u'll have to know a person for a long time, but sometimes we can wear a mask for really long, in front of selective ppl, and really, u cant claim to know a person REALLY well...there're just so many ways to look at someone. no one's a one-sided painting..even coins are 2 sided. at least that's wat i think. sometimes ppl expect you to be wat u usually are, and u keep at it each time u see them, just so u wont disappoint them, but is that fair? i guess it's a choice u must make, which either shows how much u cherish that person or how much u dont.
sometimes ppl expect u to b that way, and u just be.

i like those who dont. it's easier that way.